sorry for not posting anymore story

sorry for not posting more crap for a while

i'm kinda busy with my messed up life and i don't feel have any idea

so.. how's ur 2010 so far?

people tells me so far is nice and then they said "is just a beginning of the new mess"

hey you fucked up! you're just 16 or 17 years old teenager, what the fuck so hard with your life

you don't have to find a job to pay your house,rent and food for a day life

u don't need to get a money to buy your designer bag or shoes and load of clothes

awrite, teenager puberty problem ALWAYS been same

1st : LOVE PROBLEMS

you may think you rather die than you got a heartache trust me this heartache not gonna last

longer or make you die

2nd : friendship and social

your paranoia mind set with the backstabbing image from a movie or ever-heard story, or a two faces and 'highschool evil' oh God damn

3rd : parents

you always think this is what ruin your life so far , believe me your mind-set always like this

but HELLO can you just shut the fuck hell up and enjoy your life

because lately i can't fucking think and living my life

because i got people in my ear and yes i just grounded for a while (hope ended up soon)

this is really ruin my teenage day a bit..

okay i have a story about a girl you may ever met yet or not yet

This girl is curious about whole world

this girl is doesn't want a commitment

and she enjoying give a shit, enjoying see boys feel guilty

one day she do what she always did "make someone loves her and she want to leave him after that" she curious about this guy, and now she got him, and they get together for real with a status "in relationship" but she only played with this game and does not know that it can make this guy totally crazy about her, she can leave him any time but until now this guy still love him so she use him for being a companion while this guy can't have another girl

and she is mingle around like a bitch

she met a lot of guy

making out with them, making them crazy over her

use their money

and then she leave them

cause she DOESN'T WANT A COMMITMENT 

what do you think?

well i guess while we young, pretty and sexy , hot or attractive

why not?

we already said that we doesn't want commitment rite..

so why you have to complain about that?

you agree with that

so i think that's all from my crap post this time

thank you

see ya

XOXO

VEGAS BARBIE

what should we do to my life?

who's my role model?

well we can say

do i choose to be her and live my life like her?

i don't know

why i like her?

i'm not sure, but she's hell pretty eve thought she was bitch as hell 

and what i want to be, what?what?i don't know

be a make-up artist can be good probably

be a jewelry designer maybe

a model

a lawyer

a whatever...

i really don't know!

i'm not sure for what i live for, for who i live

my parents? myself? my lover? my grandparents? my friend? no one?

yea of course i don't want to screw up my great fuck life and my big boxes of hopes for future!

if you shout me out that i'm such a dumb ass whore, then look at yourself

who the hell are you!!

lately i just wondering what i'm going to do next..

well i don't know

do i have to care? yes we're living life with my way

don't be so freaking out with me your screw up life

people telling "she's a bitch" HEY LOOK AT YOURSELF

and "she's a poker face" then you have no life at all! hell-o hell to you

everyone does have TWO FACE

why you telling people like that but it telling everybody about yourself

what you telling to somebody about someone the truth is you telling about yourself

we're not living a life alone so you better not be selfish darling

open your eyes , try to see different from the other

well come back

what do you think about PERFECTION

like this?

or

or

this one?

or this?

or

or

which one?which one ??

like it?hates it?

if i can shout it loud

ask the government , call anyone else

WHAT IS THE CRITERIA FOR BE A PERFECTION?

skinny?white skin?0 size?famous?pretty?tall?boney body?long pretty hair?nice lips?awsome face?bitch attitude or what??fame?

can someone call me a rehab place so i can place this fucking mind there

well i guess we don't know anything about perfection rite..

xoxo

vegas barbie