i Love You So...

i don't know but i really doesn't have any passion to write down a fashion things..

" i'll wait for you boy.. don't worry "

"seems useless but i just keep chasing this pavement without an ends"

"tick tock tick tock.. every second is everything"

"i hope time faster when you're not here..and time slower when you're here"

"i'm in Love and i admit it"

" i do cry a lot, but not in front of you! i just want you see my SMILE even it fakes"

" can i have a magic now? i need it! soon you'll fall under my spell"

" maybe i'm not the one you want, or you Love.. but i know i can be a better person for you i will do anything, i can be anything you love.. i want to be the one you LOVE..always"

" tons of fish in the water ? i want you not a fish! "

" don't you trust me when i said, i do everything for you! JUST FOR YOU "

February..

Di bulan February valentine, tahun baru China yang menghiasi bulan ini

begitu pula mulai aku merasakan bagaimana February datang..

dia selalu datang tiba-tiba

mengerti?

Cinta, mungkin kita jangan membahas itu adalah cinta. Cinta itu adalah kalimat yang berat

kalau aku boleh memohon jangan menggunakan kalimat cinta sembarangan! itu kalimat yang sunggun berat

bukan aku mau mendayu

bukan aku ingin curhat

bukannya aku ingin menjadi seorang yang cengeng

tapi aku juga bukan seseorang yang cukup dewasa untuk ini

aku bukan orang yang bijaksana untuk ini

aku bukan orang yang kuat untuk hal ini

aku bukan orang yang tepat untuk menerima semua ini

Tapi aku rasa semua sudah ada dalam buku skenario Tuhan

Tuhan sudah menulis dan mengarahkan semuanya 

semuanya

hidup ku

ada di dalam sana

kita hanya perlu menjalaninya, 

sumpah aku berani sumpah aku mengakui menyukai seseorang

dimataku sumpah aku berani sumpah tidak ada satu hal pun kecacatan

kalau aku boleh berteriak

"Aku akan tersenyum untukmu, aku akan memberikan apapun untukmu, aku akan memujimu, memperhatikanmu, aku akan melakukan apa yang menjadi kesukaanmu walaupun aku bukan lah orang yang kamu cintai atau pun orang yang kamu pilih"

aku bukan seorang penyair

bukan seorang yang mendayu mendayu

aku hanya bersikap jujur

aku tidak akan memperlihatkanmu sedikitpun kesedihan 

Melihat langkah kakimu setiap hari aku bisa tersenyum

bagaimana kau berbicara denganku... boleh aku tersenyum

iya aku akan menyapamu setiap pagi

aku juga rela membuat harimu menyenangkan

apapun akan aku lakukan

tapi aku tidak akan

membiarkan mu melihat aku jatuh dan sakit karena mu

kamu hanya melihat aku JATUH CINTA KEPADAMU

i'm not wise enough for this..

i really Thanks to God i'm still alive until now

as a girls we always share advice

loves, and everything

talking always been easy

i admit in love with someone never been easy

maybe if i had a broken heart i try to make a big smile and wide innocent eyes

but i also crying for a whole week

But

i also learn from someone i actually loves too

someone that always put a trust on me, giving me a direction in life, and someone that be there..

someone that praise me well and know who i'm

i learn to be strong

"i try to love you and praise you and do everything for you even though i'm not the one you want or you love"

Life is Surprise

My Life full of Tragic like Magic

i always try to smile so you can see there's a smile in my face

i always try to look as pretty as i can so you can see me

i praise for you

i care for you

i always happy in front you

i give you a wonderful word

i won't let you know how sad or down i'm 

i won't do somekind like that

i just want you see i'm smiling 

i want you to see how happy I'm to look at you

:)

sorry for not posting anymore story

sorry for not posting more crap for a while

i'm kinda busy with my messed up life and i don't feel have any idea

so.. how's ur 2010 so far?

people tells me so far is nice and then they said "is just a beginning of the new mess"

hey you fucked up! you're just 16 or 17 years old teenager, what the fuck so hard with your life

you don't have to find a job to pay your house,rent and food for a day life

u don't need to get a money to buy your designer bag or shoes and load of clothes

awrite, teenager puberty problem ALWAYS been same

1st : LOVE PROBLEMS

you may think you rather die than you got a heartache trust me this heartache not gonna last

longer or make you die

2nd : friendship and social

your paranoia mind set with the backstabbing image from a movie or ever-heard story, or a two faces and 'highschool evil' oh God damn

3rd : parents

you always think this is what ruin your life so far , believe me your mind-set always like this

but HELLO can you just shut the fuck hell up and enjoy your life

because lately i can't fucking think and living my life

because i got people in my ear and yes i just grounded for a while (hope ended up soon)

this is really ruin my teenage day a bit..

okay i have a story about a girl you may ever met yet or not yet

This girl is curious about whole world

this girl is doesn't want a commitment

and she enjoying give a shit, enjoying see boys feel guilty

one day she do what she always did "make someone loves her and she want to leave him after that" she curious about this guy, and now she got him, and they get together for real with a status "in relationship" but she only played with this game and does not know that it can make this guy totally crazy about her, she can leave him any time but until now this guy still love him so she use him for being a companion while this guy can't have another girl

and she is mingle around like a bitch

she met a lot of guy

making out with them, making them crazy over her

use their money

and then she leave them

cause she DOESN'T WANT A COMMITMENT 

what do you think?

well i guess while we young, pretty and sexy , hot or attractive

why not?

we already said that we doesn't want commitment rite..

so why you have to complain about that?

you agree with that

so i think that's all from my crap post this time

thank you

see ya

XOXO

VEGAS BARBIE