i Love You So...

i don't know but i really doesn't have any passion to write down a fashion things..

" i'll wait for you boy.. don't worry "

"seems useless but i just keep chasing this pavement without an ends"

"tick tock tick tock.. every second is everything"

"i hope time faster when you're not here..and time slower when you're here"

"i'm in Love and i admit it"

" i do cry a lot, but not in front of you! i just want you see my SMILE even it fakes"

" can i have a magic now? i need it! soon you'll fall under my spell"

" maybe i'm not the one you want, or you Love.. but i know i can be a better person for you i will do anything, i can be anything you love.. i want to be the one you LOVE..always"

" tons of fish in the water ? i want you not a fish! "

" don't you trust me when i said, i do everything for you! JUST FOR YOU "

February..

Di bulan February valentine, tahun baru China yang menghiasi bulan ini

begitu pula mulai aku merasakan bagaimana February datang..

dia selalu datang tiba-tiba

mengerti?

Cinta, mungkin kita jangan membahas itu adalah cinta. Cinta itu adalah kalimat yang berat

kalau aku boleh memohon jangan menggunakan kalimat cinta sembarangan! itu kalimat yang sunggun berat

bukan aku mau mendayu

bukan aku ingin curhat

bukannya aku ingin menjadi seorang yang cengeng

tapi aku juga bukan seseorang yang cukup dewasa untuk ini

aku bukan orang yang bijaksana untuk ini

aku bukan orang yang kuat untuk hal ini

aku bukan orang yang tepat untuk menerima semua ini

Tapi aku rasa semua sudah ada dalam buku skenario Tuhan

Tuhan sudah menulis dan mengarahkan semuanya 

semuanya

hidup ku

ada di dalam sana

kita hanya perlu menjalaninya, 

sumpah aku berani sumpah aku mengakui menyukai seseorang

dimataku sumpah aku berani sumpah tidak ada satu hal pun kecacatan

kalau aku boleh berteriak

"Aku akan tersenyum untukmu, aku akan memberikan apapun untukmu, aku akan memujimu, memperhatikanmu, aku akan melakukan apa yang menjadi kesukaanmu walaupun aku bukan lah orang yang kamu cintai atau pun orang yang kamu pilih"

aku bukan seorang penyair

bukan seorang yang mendayu mendayu

aku hanya bersikap jujur

aku tidak akan memperlihatkanmu sedikitpun kesedihan 

Melihat langkah kakimu setiap hari aku bisa tersenyum

bagaimana kau berbicara denganku... boleh aku tersenyum

iya aku akan menyapamu setiap pagi

aku juga rela membuat harimu menyenangkan

apapun akan aku lakukan

tapi aku tidak akan

membiarkan mu melihat aku jatuh dan sakit karena mu

kamu hanya melihat aku JATUH CINTA KEPADAMU

i'm not wise enough for this..

i really Thanks to God i'm still alive until now

as a girls we always share advice

loves, and everything

talking always been easy

i admit in love with someone never been easy

maybe if i had a broken heart i try to make a big smile and wide innocent eyes

but i also crying for a whole week

But

i also learn from someone i actually loves too

someone that always put a trust on me, giving me a direction in life, and someone that be there..

someone that praise me well and know who i'm

i learn to be strong

"i try to love you and praise you and do everything for you even though i'm not the one you want or you love"

Life is Surprise

My Life full of Tragic like Magic

i always try to smile so you can see there's a smile in my face

i always try to look as pretty as i can so you can see me

i praise for you

i care for you

i always happy in front you

i give you a wonderful word

i won't let you know how sad or down i'm 

i won't do somekind like that

i just want you see i'm smiling 

i want you to see how happy I'm to look at you

:)

sorry for not posting anymore story

sorry for not posting more crap for a while

i'm kinda busy with my messed up life and i don't feel have any idea

so.. how's ur 2010 so far?

people tells me so far is nice and then they said "is just a beginning of the new mess"

hey you fucked up! you're just 16 or 17 years old teenager, what the fuck so hard with your life

you don't have to find a job to pay your house,rent and food for a day life

u don't need to get a money to buy your designer bag or shoes and load of clothes

awrite, teenager puberty problem ALWAYS been same

1st : LOVE PROBLEMS

you may think you rather die than you got a heartache trust me this heartache not gonna last

longer or make you die

2nd : friendship and social

your paranoia mind set with the backstabbing image from a movie or ever-heard story, or a two faces and 'highschool evil' oh God damn

3rd : parents

you always think this is what ruin your life so far , believe me your mind-set always like this

but HELLO can you just shut the fuck hell up and enjoy your life

because lately i can't fucking think and living my life

because i got people in my ear and yes i just grounded for a while (hope ended up soon)

this is really ruin my teenage day a bit..

okay i have a story about a girl you may ever met yet or not yet

This girl is curious about whole world

this girl is doesn't want a commitment

and she enjoying give a shit, enjoying see boys feel guilty

one day she do what she always did "make someone loves her and she want to leave him after that" she curious about this guy, and now she got him, and they get together for real with a status "in relationship" but she only played with this game and does not know that it can make this guy totally crazy about her, she can leave him any time but until now this guy still love him so she use him for being a companion while this guy can't have another girl

and she is mingle around like a bitch

she met a lot of guy

making out with them, making them crazy over her

use their money

and then she leave them

cause she DOESN'T WANT A COMMITMENT 

what do you think?

well i guess while we young, pretty and sexy , hot or attractive

why not?

we already said that we doesn't want commitment rite..

so why you have to complain about that?

you agree with that

so i think that's all from my crap post this time

thank you

see ya

XOXO

VEGAS BARBIE

this is NO-VEMBE-RRR

now start with a bad new first!!

uuuu..

Miley Cyrus tour bus having an accident

but!

at that time miley is not on the bus

hte accident is in Virginia

poor little miley

and then..

i can't wait to watch

planet 51 and new moon!

and an Indonesian movie

RUMAH DARA or MACABRE

is very nice movie (i heard)

i'm not a fans of thriller but i try to watch it later >,<

what i've been listening lately is

somebody to love by Leighton Meester

is a such a nice song!

i don't have anything to share so 

CAO!

bye,,,

xoxo

VEGAS BARBIE

SWEET OCTO-BEEER

October is SUPER!

know why?

i have a blast! my super belated fabulous BIRTHDAY

:D is on 9th sorry i just post something now

but i really have FUN

what i learn when i'm older :

1. don't ever pick a wrong friend, is really affect for people see your quality

2. WISER

3. mature in a way of thinking

4. don't ever fall for a wrong guy

But someone having a birthday too!

1. HELLO KITTY , she is turning 35 in this month

2. MY BEST GIRL-FRIEND, FRINDA!!

MY FAVORITE LATELY

1. COUTURE COUTURE PERFUM

Another Juice Couture Perfume

2. Very Sexy MakeUp  by Victoria's Secret

The Packaging is simple but sexy and beaut , but the color totally can make your skin pops out

3. MGMT

THE NEW GENIUS IN MUSIC ,UH?

TOTALLY!!

4. Sketching

I'm into sketching a bit lately, haha but trust me my work

is a CRAP

5. Ms. Van

An Artist, i totally love her work

Recommended !!!!

COCO BEFORE CHANEL

THE UGLY TRUTH 

Lately i'm into in Gerard Butler ah he's HOT! he plays on PS i Love You

which is hot and romantic :)

GOSSIP!

maybe you know it maybe yo don't

Avril Lavigne Just Divorce! uh-oh! yeaaa with Deryck

But Deryck alreeady dating someone WOW!

wanna know?

i think this girl totally way cuter than Avril

she is Hanna Beth, yes such an beautiful model

WOW BUT DERYCK, you just pick a right girl, Hanna is waaay better :) no offense Avril :D

well that's all for now :)

Happy Birthday to me to me , yea i already celebrate it :)

having a totally blast AAAAH

love you all

XOXO VEGAS BARBIE

TRICK OR TREAT? MONSTER OR FAIRY?

HALLOWEEN COMING TO TOWN

READY FOR 31 october?

to bad in Indonesia this halloween thingy so popular BUT not much celebrate it, almost all people

not celebrate the halloween here BUT i would love to do that

I WANT IT 

it gonna be so rad uh?

well i think for a girl is better we use something cute scary sexy gorgeous

or be an fashion icon or legendary?

AN IDEA FOR HALLOWEEN COSTUME:

1.

Audrey Hepburn

2.

Soda Pop Girl but use the black stocking or without stocking is still cute

is cute is pink and black.

3.

Cat women is sexy and mysterious maybe too hard to find a costume you can wear

- latex pants

- black tops like tank tops or something that tight or maybe you can wear

  leather jacket

- and boots the ankle boots it's okay but it have to be black

- and dont forget the cat mask!! is a must ,duh!

- if you wear a tops that tank tops or tube make sure you wear gloves the   leather one !

4. 

PIN UP GIRLS

well you can wear a mini dress with a cute hairstyle and heels and dont

forget the cute makeup too!

5.

EDIE SEDGWICK

a super duper fashion icon, the 60's look is the best! i think i would love

to be her at halloween

6. 

Ballerina, not the plain one but use the cute corset with a lace and ribbon

and the tutu skirt with ribbon and dont forget the ballerina shoes and 

tight and some killer hair and makeup style

7. 

Lady Gaga what an pop culture, you can be her at halloween but NOT ON

A STREET

8. 

be a bunny girl!! if you don't wanna look to OPEN with this idea of BUNNY  GIRL you can wear something like a dress or a top with a skirt or anything

that cute and wear a bunny ear and bunny little tail!

9. 

Be A MINNIE MOUSE! minnie mouse is a girl and her character is fun,  flirty and cute is gonna be superrr cute!

10. 

an angel! wear white dress simple uh? dont forget wings and angel halo

11. 

hello kitty! hello kitty or hello katy perry?uh oh!

12. 

Be something that inspired by David Bowie or just be him?

13. 

Be a Princess my pick would be cinderella or sleeping beauty, well hope 

i can celebrate the halloween

14. 

kylie minogue?? YES!! she is amazing

15. 

TRY THE FUTURUSTIC STYLE! always try that! if you dont know what to wear just do the futuristic!

That's all for a tips for halloween!!

hope i can celebrate the halloween :( want it so muuuch

have a nice day everyone

XOXO VEGAS BARBIE